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ok kids this lj is outta here . . . i need somewhere to write and it's time to start all over again.
so long sweet summer.
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) prettyzombiegrl
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yeah so this journal is becoming friends-only bitches because of stupid lurkers. leave a comment if you are not on my friends list. loves.
p.s. if i took you off my friends list it is only because we either don't talk much or i figured you wouldn't care ha! <3
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| You can agree when I say . . . |
[17 Nov 2005|09:12am] |
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that this fall/winter has been the worst one ever.
Although I can say a few good things about post-summer time they're not even worth
mentioning in comparison to the drama, confusion, sadness, and craziness we all have
incurred these last couple of months.
Between break-up's and heartbreaks, car wrecks and death, more school and less money,
and a long list of other
mishappenings I think I can safely proclaim that we all just need a vacation.
Luckily, December is right around the corner and that month has never steered
me wrong before especially since my birthday is right at the beginning of it.
This summer was the best summer of my life spending almost every waking day with rance
and ghost hunting all night with the twins. Even though that time never got rance and I
anywhere, the one thing I did gain was a stronger friendship between the two girls and
I that is much more appreciated now in this time of depression.
Things were starting to look up, but it's been a long and rocky road back to
self-confidence land. It's been extremely hard dealing with being so sick and tired
and trying to maintain a friendship with an exboyfriend that lies to everyone. On top
of all of that, I've had to change my life around in order to maintain my sanity.
I was stretching myself thin so I quit one of my jobs, I was stressing myself out so
I dropped two classes, and my car was broken so I got it fixed with what little money
I could spare. This helped yes, but the neverending stream of bad luck hasn't quite ended.
On top of trying to rebuild my mental state of mind, two boys have helped me through a lot
and added to the confusion at the same time. I'm not ready to dive back into any sort of
relationship minus being friends because I physically and emotional could not handle it.
They understand to a certain extent making me want to pull my hair out. I don't need a boy
or boys to find happiness. All I need is a friend, and yeah I already have plenty of those.
This Christmas break, I want to see each and every one of you at least once. I need to get
out more often.
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| ok hmmm . . . |
[03 Nov 2005|08:47am] |
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It's like really, seriously why do i write stuff in here?
I dunno it always makes me feel depressed but I guess boredom outweighs that right now.
So yeah, my life is just fucking shitty. Last month, my fucking favorite month of the whole fucking year, was ruined by many
people and many things. Let's see how many things can go wrong in 31 days. . . i;m behind in school and am prolly failing a class
or two; i've had a cold for daysss causing me to miss a day of work which was NOT good for the paycheck; yeah got heartbroken
bc of my drug fiend fucked up ex; got stabbed in the back by a so-called friend; my car is broken shit just keeps stalling making it hard as fuck to drive; my aunt and uncle are PISSED that i haven't been over to see their new baby despite the fact that I have a sinus infection & a UTI; and finally, i was diagnosed
with another illness that isn't so awesome either. It's one a tiny bit more drastic to my health than the other two infections i seem to have.
Basically, the doctor told me the stress from work, school, and people in my life has been running me to the ground and i'm stretching myself so thin that
my whole body is exhausted and my immune systerm is shot. They warned me i guess that if i didnt chill out every once in a while I would
end up in the hosptial. They weren't kidding. Except I couldnt even make it to the hospital in time due to excessive puking. I can't do it anymore ya know.
Thank God for Ali and Ani. They've been here by my side through this whole freaking thing. They are the best fucking friends a girl can have.
Seriously. Stupid and jealous people can start all the drama and gossip about us they want, but they only do that because we're so amazing.
It is true. We stick by each other when times are hard, love each other when boys hurt us, and comfort each other no matter what. 1st grade still
seems like yesterday to me.
Ok, so minus me being like a few days late in my classes and feeling shitty about some personal boy issues, my health is starting to improve.
There won't be much word on the other illness until I'm ready to talk about it, but as far as the 2 infections go I'm abut 75% better. I did some
remodeling of my life . . . i dropped a class, i quit a job, ani and i are taking a winter break from TVG, and pretty soon lip sync will be over for a
month as well. Next semester I should be an all new girl. Hopefully.
This past weeked I hung out with some cool people and didn't get to hang out with some cool people.
Matt you're awesome and we def need to do something very soon. (I'm broke too we'll make it cheap.)
Jackie, I'm sorry I missed your party but obviously if I didn't pass out and die at the hospital I
would've there due to a certain someone. Prolly a good idea I didn't come anyway. BUT tonight
will be amazing! Work is going to go by sooo slow. Hurry up 930pm!!!
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| ugh . . . |
[26 Oct 2005|11:55am] |
my whole world sucks right now. yeah, it really does. if i didn't have the double A team backing me up I wouldn't be alive to write this fucking entry.
first of all, the love of my life is gone. i don't even know him anymore. one day everything was perfect, the next day he didn't want me around. too good to be true. like always. sadly, i'll be responsible for his demise because it was my fault for getting him into the things he's doing now. i feel guilty as shit.
next, this week is impossible. actually this month is impossible. im doing not so awesome in school. in fact since the time to withdraw has expired i might purposely fail a class because i don't like the professor. on top of that, i suck at my business courses which depresses me beyond belief.
let's not forget the fact that i work, and i work quite a bit. also i work with HIM. does not make ANYTHING easier.
on top of all of that, i have a party to plan; my aunts baby is popping out today, ani and i have a show to work on saturday, and i have lip sync practice on sunday.
i still don't have a costume. :-/
i fucking HATE my life. so lonely.
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| stole from heather |
[03 Oct 2005|02:40pm] |
my official video games= Paper Boy 1 & 2
my official food= spaghetti
my official drink= dr. pepper
my official tv shows= Dawson's Creek, the L Word, and Felicity
my official job= Suncoast
my official word(s)= anything en francais
my official wrestling motions= super pinch
my official jacket= teal/pink coat
my official snack= popcorn
my official breakfast food= french toast
my official car i want= VW what
my official band= Guns N Roses
my official theme song= "Grind With Me"- Pretty Ricky
my official best friends= Ani & Ali
my official wrestlers= I don't have one.
my official season= Fall.
my official dogs= . . .
my official favorite show= HANSON
my official gaming system i own= nintendo, supernintendo, sega genesis, ps, and ps2 (all my faves for various reasons)
my official place i want to go= Tahiti
my official meeting place= twins apartment
my official mascot= zombiez
my official missed memory= holy family
my official movie= The Lost Boys
my official favorite family other than mine= ha!
my official screen name right now= prettyzombiegirl
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| I stole this from katie bc I'm bored . . . |
[15 Sep 2005|08:52pm] |
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THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. renee
2. nay nay
3. reneelet
THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. mmmbob69 <--- HAHA!!!
2. midnightkisses6
3. prettyzombiegirl
THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. my eyes
2. the fact that i care (about most things)
3. rance (i honestly couldn't think of a third thing)
THREE THINGS YOU HATE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. i'm ugly
2. i'm lazy
3. and out of shape
THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. german
2. french
3. irish
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. being completely alone
2. never succeeding
3. always being sad
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. sidekick
2. cellphone
3. pipe <--- HAHA!!!
THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. black t-shirt
2. jeans
3. flip flops
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS RIGHT NOW:
1. sneaker pimps
2. air
3. bob marley (on the weekends)
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
1. sneaker pimps- half life
2. pretty ricky- grind with me
3. ALL david bowie
THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. saving money
2. moving out
3. getting good grades
THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP, BESIDES LOVE:
1. i have everything . . .
2.
3.
TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE:
1. i am crazy
2. if i met a really amazing girl that blew my mind and we fell in love, i'd be with her
3. i'm sxe
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE (OR SAME) SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. sweetness
2. sensitivity
3. rance
THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. save money
2. talk about music (more like i refuse)
3. drink vodka
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. writing
2. reading
3. weekend parties
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. smoooke
2. get a back rub
3. eat
THREE CAREERS YOU ARE CONSIDERING:
1. entrepreneur
2. writer
3. editor/designer
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. one of those south of the border cruises
2. europe
3. canada
THREE KIDS NAMES:
1. brooklyn
2. taylor
3. aicha <--- HAHA!!!
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. have a successful business
2. write amazing novels/books
3. be in a band
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| Another Round. |
[01 Sep 2005|12:04pm] |
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Ah, yes. It's that time of year again . . . SCHOOL! :[
Anyway, I hope everyone had an uneventful first week back.
My schedule is as follows if anyone cares:
Mon.& Wed.
L297 English Lit- Medieval (1600) from 1100-1215
L140 Intro to English Studies from 115-230
and on
Tue. & Thur.
F or L something- Personal Finance from 930-1045 AM!
A201 Financial Accounting from 115-230
Yup, there it is. In my third/fourth year attending college I FINALLY
have a semester of only classes that contribute to my particular major.
Very nice.
Speaking of college . . .
Guess who left me?! My fave brother in the world.
( Read more... )
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[19 Aug 2005|12:20pm] |
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I've been meaning just to write in this for awhile because of everything that has happened this week.
Basically, there's someone in my life who is this amazing godly, selfless person. She's been there for me through everything. She knows more about me than my own mother does. She always understands me and my life without ever judging my behavior. I can always come to her for everything. Unfortunately, this week she, my aunt, was diagnosed with cervical cancer. The story is the most tragic of all because the way in which she contracted cancer was from another human being. Without going into any details, he was one that she helped too and he betrayed her. Now she's paying for it with her life. All week the family has been under a lot of duress. None of us can sleep for fear of our family getting torn apart. There's so much to think about. For now, we all know she is fine, but for those of you who read this it would mean a lot to me if you could keep her in your prayers.
Moving on, the cancer my aunt has was found by her gynocologist when she went in for her annual. The test came out abnormal and they told her she had precancerous cells. Two weeks ago after my annual girl check up, they told me the same thing. Fortunately for me though it can easily be taken care of. Plus, I'm young and show no signs or symptoms of what my aunt has. Ironically enough, my aunt is more worried about me than herself. I can't stop crying.
To make matters worse, I overdrew my bank account last week so much that my last two paychecks barely covered it. Once back to zero, I closed the account and opened a new one. I still owe my mom $100. I also couldn't pay my credit card bills on time. I have exactly three dollars in change in my purse right now. They're for emergencies. Although I get paid today, the money goes to everyone else until I get caught up again.
It just seems like when things are bad they're REALLY bad. I think I'm bleeding. I can't help but take i t all out on the ones i love. Then i feel like the most horrible person in the world. So now my friends and family probably hate me for being so rude, but I'm really just so lost. I wish . . . no fuck that wishing is for kids. It never comes true.
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Ok, everyone- show tomorrow, the warehouse, ThatVintageGreen will be setting up, and with more cool vintage stuff. All of which including . . .
x] Various colors of 80s slip-on FLATS.
x] More original homemade buttons featuring the Garbage Pail Kids, Wet Hot American Summer, and Tales from the Crypt.
x] Clutch purses galore.
x] And of course, even more rad, hand-sewn clothes made by us for you guys.
So, everyone please bring your friends, bring money, and have them bring money as well because I guarantee you won't want to miss out on this. Do it. Details:
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[01 Aug 2005|05:42pm] |
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i got a t-mobile Sidekick and now I have a new (emergency) cell phone number. The other one is my main one, so only call my sidekick if you really have to b/c I only have 300 minutes. K? Ok the number is: (502)299-4154
Also, to go with this as most of you know, my aim name is midnightkisses6 which will remain my name whenever i'm on my computer, but when i'm on my Sidekick, my screenname is prettyzombiegirl and it will be on 24/7 unless I have my Sidekick off to recharge it.
just letting everyone know, so put my new number in your phone and add my new screen name to your buddy list pleaseeeeee!
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[19 Jul 2005|04:13am] |
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seriously, you should stop trying.
faux.
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[19 May 2005|12:47am] |
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so the majority of you i'm sure are viewing the midnight showing of star wars right now. don't lie. you did. you prolly dressed up too. i would. lucky. i wanted to go. he got to go. without me. so sad.
anyway, he is a new he. obviously. most of you know that stuff. he's my he and a great one at that. best he ever. hehe. ah gotcha. no bold. ha!
so yeah, how about this . . .
Still working on the site. Slowly but surely. We have some rocking buttons, and an Ebay store!!!
Hey you bands out there::: let us do your band shirts! Please! Support your local small businesses. Especially us because we're cute.
Hehe.
All I have left to say is that it is FINALLY summer! Ah! Yesss!
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